What is it like*

What is it like to find that
you are not loved

What is it like to find that
you are not loved even by
your most loved one

what is it like to find that
she actually never loved you

what is it like to find that
she actually loved someone
she wished you could be
but not you

what is it like to find that
you are never loved

To me it is like
being buried alive

18 July 2006
Sam-el Ladh

* Published as "Prelude" in "Kau Tak Harus Mencintaiku", a novel by Almino Situmorang (Gagas Media, 2007)

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